Stormy Day!

Last night it was so windy here! The wind was extremely powerful, and it was making so much noise at my house I had a hard time sleeping this morning! Also I wasn't that sleepy, but I was really windy. It also happens to be my fiance's birthday today.

He has dreams from time to time which come true, so I was hoping that with all the energy from the storm he would have some interesting dreams maybe, but when I asked him this morning he sleepily replied in the negative. I really did feel the energy from the storm myself while I was getting ready and also somewhat last night, though last night I felt more calmness than this morning. This morning it was like everything around me was affected by that wind. It was swirling and gusting and whistling everywhere!

Generally I can sense the mood of the storm, like whether it is a destructive storm or a life giving storm. This one was clearly destructive, but I am unsure of whether there was really a strong mood of that, to me it was mostly just a chaotic mood, not so much destruction but instead just a feeling of whirling power. I felt excited and happy about it actually.

Which reminds me, I haven't mentioned in my blog about some new events that are important. This last Friday I met with the 2 other witches whom I know and we talked some and I did some rune casting as well. It was neat because one of my witch friends asked a questions which complements the one that I asked of the runes recently, albiet from her perspective not mine, so of course it was not the same question, but rather about the same topic, which is whether to keep being solitary now that we have the option to join together.

I had reservations about it, so I asked the runes, and she has different ones of course, so it was just neat that we are both thinking of that. Nothing has really been set in stone at all, it's more that we are all slowly getting to know each other's preferences and sort of feeling it out. It was really cool to talk about it and show them both my book and runes and everything which I have been studying, making, and learning. I hope it works out, it would be very cool if it did.

Speaking of things I am making, I have been continuing to work on my rune cloth, it is coming along pretty well. I am unsure of how much detail I want in the cross stitching, and so I am simply doing outlines for now and leaving the decoration for after the main parts are in so I can get a feel for how much of an undertaking that would be.

I will take some pictures and make a post about it this week.

Anyway back to the maybe I'm going to form a coven thing. Well, I guess it might be a good call to set something up. I should look at my schedule and find a good night for that type of thing, or maybe we can each take turns having it at our houses and each person sets the day and time. There are only 3 of us so it wouldn't be like we would need to have a "leader" or priestess or anything, but we should really have like, plans for what we want to accomplish. I think what I will do is make a list of things I want to learn from them/learn as a group, and goals for my witch life as far as what I want to accomplish. It would be a good starting off point for us as a group to each make something like that and then we can come together, compare, and make plans for helping each other reach our goals.

I am also thinking that I will do some reviews of different books I have read about being a witch. Honestly I have a hard time calling myself "Wiccan" because I feel like it's not really what I am. Partly because I tend to just read things and take what I want only from it and I'm not really following in anyone else's footsteps, so I didn't feel like I'm a follower of Wicca, more of just someone who identifies most closely with that group. But I do feel comfortable calling myself a witch. At least when I am talking about it anyway.

I am not open about it actually, except with my fiance and my two witch friends. My family and most of my friends have no idea. One of my witch friends, she asked about how I would handle it if someone asks me what religion I am or something like that, and I told her I don't know, because really no one asks that. Plus, I was raised Methodist, so it's not like I can really say that I'm against all religion, I think it's great for some people, it's just not what is right for me. I just can't beleive in it, and so it becomes nothing but something that I felt like I should beleive in, not something that I actually did.

Once I let that go, I have been so much more free and happy, and also more creative and I am starting to see things. But I haven't really shared my secret with anyone, people who knew me before just assume I'm a Christian and I have never really refuted it to them. I don't want people to become concerned with it so I just let it be. I know who I am, and that's all that matters. This post is getting long and off topic so I'm going to let it be as well, for now!

To be continued!

The Water Elemental I Met

The following is something I wrote from January 30th, 2009, almost a year ago. It relates to what may have been a water elemental, or some other water spirit, whatever you want to call it.

It was an amazing and slightly strange experience. I was cross country skiing (a love of mine) when I came across a meadow thick with fog. It wasn't normal fog that almost smells dirty, it was clean smelling. The air was thick with water, it was slightly hard to breathe and I knew there was a presence in that meadow. I could feel it wanting to draw me near. It wasn't a particularly picturesque meadow at the time, because there were snowmobile tracks all over it. They tend to do that to open spaces in the snow.

Despite that, it was so quiet and it seemed almost like sacred ground. On my first stop there, I decided to continue on past, knowing I should be cautious about something so clearly more powerful than me. But at the same time, very curious. I was tempted to go look there. I simply said: "I'll be back." And kept going.

I felt like I could feel more than just a magical presence, but also an intelligent one. On my way back by, I stopped again, and this time, sure I shouldn't go over there, I did a little bow as if to pay my respects and thought about bringing my friend who is also a witch with me next time. She happens to be a water person, so that elemental was a better fit for her than me.

For a while after that day I would feel like I was being watched over by something in the sky, and I felt like the weather was being controlled by that spirit, and it was still reaching out to me. I never figured out what it meant, and I have since mostly lost that feeling, though I do sense whether a storm feels destructive or life bringing.
It was a very neat experience, and I can't say that I have really felt something similar since. I have really wanted to and several times I have thought about going back to that place, but I never have. I also have thought about trying to astrally travel to that place, but I have struggled with that type of thing, I think I need more practice. Anyways, I just wanted to add that in there because it was on my mind today. Occassionally I think of that day and ponder what the presence was and what it wanted. Someday maybe it will be clear!